Thursday, June 21, 2012

Hospital Packing List

Wallet
Hospital Paperwork
Birth Plan
Glasses
Contacts and Solution
Toothbrushes and toothpaste
Deodorant
Brush
Makeup
Bathrobe
Nightgown or black dress
Change of clothes to wear home
Socks
Ipod or laptop with playlist
Camera, camera charger
Comfy shoes/ flip flops
Cash - $20 or so (parking)
Bathing Suits for  both of us
Cell phones
Snacks – granola bars, rainbow cookies, juice (capri suns), non alcoholic champagne, orange juice, jolly ranchers
Nursing bra and regular bra
Sanitary Pads – lots of the thick ones
Bradley book
Going home outfit for the baby 
Baby bonnet, socks, booties, cap, gloves so the baby doesn’t scratch face
Baby book? To put the foot stamp in?
Car seat installed in the car already
Receiving blanket for the ride home
Chocolates for the nurses
Nipple cream or coconut oil
Towels – 2
Massage cream

Monday, June 11, 2012

One Month Left

When I say there is one month left, it seems like an eternity.  When I say there are about 4 weeks left, it feels a lot sooner!!!

I am now at 35.5 weeks, and truly, the baby could come at any time.  I am hoping she stays in there until 37 weeks at least, when she will be full term.  I hope she doesn't come past 40 weeks, though.  If my due date comes and goes with no baby, I know myself: I will be miserable every day, impatiently waiting with frustration.  I will try almost anything to get her to come... except caster oil.  I will NEVER try caster oil.  I do plan on going to Scalini's- an Italian restuarant in Atlanta known for their labor- inducing eggplant parmasian.  Supposedly, if you go into labor and have the baby after 48 hours of eating it, your baby gets dubbed an "Eggplant Parm baby" and gets featured on the Scalini's wall and website.  They also give you a little onesie for the baby... haha!  I just hope it works.

Today is the day I began working from home.  I am so grateful that the work I do can be done from home, because soon I will be able to take care of the baby and still get everything done that I need to do for work (and still make a living, too!).  It helps to be at home before the baby comes as well.  My ribs and back are constantly in pain from the baby jamming into them, and I am tired (so much so that when I finish taking my shower in the morning and getting ready for work, I am already ready for a nap again!).   I took a nap midday today, and it was glorious and much needed.

I hate to seem like I am complaining all of the time, but I  am truly uncomfortable right now.  I cannot wait until the day comes and I can feel relief.  I have talked to so many women who said that right after the baby was born it felt like TREMENDOUS relief.  I believe them.  It must be!  I cannot remember what it feels like to feel NORMAL again, but I cannot wait to feel normal. 

This is how I feel right now... like Scott Calvin in "The Santa Clause" where he asks his doctor: "a little weight?  Does this look like a little weight to you?"  That big, lump of a belly that feels like it shouldn't be there...








Friday, June 1, 2012

My Most Recent Ailment, and Life at 34 Weeks Preggo

My most recent ailment: pain in my ribs!

So recently, I have been having awful, debilitating pain in my ribs, on the right side.  The baby has grown so much and has not dropped yet, so she is crowding my ribcage and let me just say…. OUCH!!!

The only way I get any relief is by laying down on a heating pad, or having Phil rub my ribs and back.  The pain wraps from the front of my ribcage all the way to my back!  It's so horrible.  If I am sitting up at work,  I am usually in pain these days.  Therefore I am so looking forward to beginning to work from home soon.  I don't know when though!

I feel like I have so much to do yet.  I am at 34 weeks tomorrow, and I still need to get Medicaid/insurance stuff figured out.  I also need to write a list of what to pack for the hospital, and pack it.  We just finally sat down and wrote our birth plan for the midwives yesterday.  I am just so tired all the time that I have very  little desire to get anything done.  I come home from work at 1:30 every day and then nap for hours.  The other day I missed a doctor's appointment because I forgot about it and took a nap instead.  It was re-scheduled for today.  Sigh.

Yesterday I had maternity photos taken by my co-worker's daughter, who is extremely talented for her age and just has a natural eye for photography.  She did the photos as a loving gift, which we were very blessed to have.  She took us to a field behind their church with tall grass, and we took several photos with different props such as balloons, a little book, baby shoes, letters that spell out the  baby's name, and others.  I cannot wait to see them.  My co-worker assured me they came out good, but I am nervous that I will look like a giant whale in them! 

Onto the weight issue… I have gained 30 pounds exactly at this point.  Most of that is in my belly, but I can tell a little in my face and arms as well.  I am glad I am staying on track for the most part and haven't gone overboard.  I've been very careful with my weight gain, and my midwife has complimented me on that!  I hope that I do not go over gaining 35 pounds.  That gives me about one more month, and five pounds that I could possibly gain. That means I need to continue to be careful, and keep walking and moving rather than just resting and pigging out. 

Here is a photo I took this morning, showing how large and in charge the belly has become!



Monday, May 21, 2012

Braxton Hicks Rears it's Ugly Head

This weekend we had a wonderful night alone together on Saturday to make dinner together and relax, watching a movie.  We made delicious beer butt chicken and scalloped potatoes with bacon… A huge treat!  It was wonderful.  We sat down to eat and watch the movie and all of a sudden…

PAIN!  Immense pain.  In my abdomen, on the right side. 

It caused me to cry out in pain instinctively.  "Ouuuuuuuuchhhhhhhh  wtf!" was my reaction, pretty much. 

It came and went, and then came and went again… Several times… For about half an hour.  It was like no other pain I have felt before.  People I have talked to about it suggested it may have been gas (which it was not, I know what that feels like) or the baby kicking too hard (nope, not that either… I know what it feels like when she kicks HARD).  Others have suggested it was Braxton Hicks contractions, which I thought were supposed to be painless.  I have had at least one Braxton Hicks contraction before that I felt- it felt like my whole stomach tightening, but it wasn't painful.

Well this time, it was painful.  And so I did some research online and found out that yes, Braxton Hicks contractions CAN be painful!  So I am assuming that is what they were. 

My thought the next morning was… "if this is anything like what real labor contractions are like, I am TERRIFIED"!!! 

Ugh. 

WHYYYYYY does it have to be painful again?????

Friday, May 11, 2012

Babymoon

We came back from our babymoon about a week ago- whew!  This week has flown by, just as the vacation week had!  I have to say, it was the most amazing, wonderful vacation.  The time we got to spend together was invaluable. 

We began our babymoon on Saturday, April 28.  We drove down to Chipley, FL, to a campsite called Falling Waters.  We had wanted to camp at Henderson State Park which is actually directly on the beach in Destin, but it was all booked.  So we chose Falling Waters, home of the tallest waterfall in Florida.  We got to the campsite, set up our tent, and then got invited by a park ranger to see him show off his collection of snakes.  We went to that for a little while, but didn't stay.  It was already hot outside and we were ready for a swim.  We headed down to the lake which was actually really nice.  The water felt amazing!  A little chilly for Phil's taste, but I loved it.  We laid out a bit, and then went back to our campsite and made some delish fajitas over the fire.  We had really good conversation, and a nice fire going until the sun went down.  We were tired from the drive down so we went to bed early.  It was so difficult sleeping on the hard ground all night!!  I tossed and turned and then kicked myself for going camping at 7 months preggo! Hehe.  But at least we were together and making memories. 

The next day, we hiked to the waterfall after breakfast over the fire.  It was a nice hike, but when we got to the falls we were disappointed to find that they were almost all dried up!  Apparently it needs to be rainy season for the falls to really be flowing.  It was interesting though, all along the hike were these massive sinkholes.  After a while we got a little bored, so we decided to go to the front office and ask if there was anything in the area to do.  They recommended going to the Florida Caverns and taking a tour, so we did.  It was cool- we saw the formations, the stalagmites and stalactites.  The tour guide was informative and we took a ton of photos.  Afterwards we went out for lunch at a Southern BBQ place that was really good.  That night we stayed up talking for hours in the tent and had an amazing conversation about life, spirituality, the baby, etc.  Even though trying to sleep sucked again, the convo was worth it all.

The next morning, Monday, we headed out early to Destin.  We got there an hour later and made our first stop at the Donut Hole CafĂ©… It was soooooo good!!  We shared an omelet, an apple fritter, and a red velvet donut.  It was the best donut I have ever had in my life!  Then we went to the hotel, and they kindly let us check in early.  In our hotel room was a fridge and microwave, which we didn't expect but which was really good since we had lots of drinks with us to keep cold!  We changed and headed out to the beach.  The best surprise was that the beach looked nothing like the other beaches we have been to on the panhandle… It was GORGEOUS aqua blue water and looked like we were in the Caribbean! The sand was as white as snow and the water was so clear that even being 100 yards out you could still see your feet!  It was perfection, and SO much better than I had expected.  We were in heaven.  We laid out, swam, bodysurfed, snacked, chatted, etc.  In the afternoon, we went back to the hotel and enjoyed the pool and hot tub (I didn't get in all the way), and then chose a spot for dinner called Dewey Destin's.  It was this hole in the wall place right on the harbor that was the oldest restaurant in Destin.  They had amazing fried seafood and an out of this world view of the aqua water with sailboats passing by and a sunset backdrop. 



The rest of the week followed a beautifully laid out pattern: sleep in, have belgium waffles and sausage at the hotel for breakfast, go to the beach and swim, come back and hang out by the hotel pool in the afternoon (which was shaded, so we were less likely to get burnt), and then go out to dinner.  We chose great places for dinner such as The Back Porch, which was overlooking the beach and had great seafood, Tops Hamburgers, which was a hole in the wall hamburger place with excellent burgers I must say, and Harry T's, which was probably the best place we went.  It was right on the marina and had a gorgeous view.  We even saw a pod of 6 dolphins swimming by during dinner!  The shrimp pasta I got was so perfect.  It was nice being able to go out for dinners rather than staying at a condo and having to buy food and make it at home.  One of the nights we also went out to see a movie: The Five Year Engagement, which was cute.  The night we went to Harry T's, afterward we walked around the marina and saw all the boats and little shops.  It was so nice and peaceful and romantic.

The very last day we went to a little cove we had discovered that was a great snorkeling spot.  It was right by the jetty's and there were snorkeling tours bringing tourists there, although it was a public beach.  We laid out and swam, and we did see a few things such as little fish, jellyfish, and a massive stingray.  The nice thing was that the waves were so calm and serene on this little beach.  We took a long walk out to a little strip of land that we had seen from the marina, around where we had seen the dolphins.  I was hoping to see more, and I actually prayed that we would see one… And all of a sudden we did!!!  I whipped out my camera and started taking shots of the dolphin every time he poked his fin out!  I loved that.  :)  We actually saw other wildlife throughout the week at the beach.  We saw a massive manta ray, a stingray, a 5 or 6 foot long cobia and another smaller cobia, white fish swimming all around us, sand crabs, crabs in conch shells, and of course jellyfish (although we discovered they were comb jellyfish, which don't actually sting). 

On Friday we headed home feeling rested, satisfied, rejuvenated… All of the things we needed to feel and hadn't felt in a while.  Then we still had two full days of weekend before having to go back to work, which was also really nice.  Overall… The perfect babymoon.  I am so, so glad we did this.  It was so worth it. 

Thursday, April 26, 2012

A Pregnancy Poem


This morning, my bff Farrah sent me this poem about pregnancy via text message. We spent some time analyzing it and commenting.  How fun!  Here's the poem, and some of my thoughts.

Metaphors

I'm a riddle in nine syllables,
An elephant, a ponderous house,
A melon strolling on two tendrils.
O red fruit, ivory, fine timbers!
This loaf's big with its yeasty rising.
Money's new-minted in this fat purse.
I'm a means, a stage, a cow in calf.
I've eaten a bag of green apples,
Boarded the train there's no getting off. 
 

I am 7 months preggo right now and reading this poem made me laugh.  It is a dark humor, one that you can best understand if you have gone through what she had gone through.

I really believe this poem is ambiguous- she is both happy and sad, amongst a huge cocktail mix of other things.  As a pregnant woman, there are many feelings and emotions going on. 

One of the biggest thing you notice when pregnant is just how HUGE you feel!!  My favorite line is "a melon strolling on two tendrils."  I visually pictured this and it was very amusing.  Also, the terms "elephant", "ponderous house", "fat purse", and "melon" all refer to feeling massive, bloated, gigantic!

There are also lots of terms that refer to feeling fruitful: "o red fruit", "loaf's big with yeasty rising", "money's new-minted."  Newly formed, fresh, growing, etc. 

 One of the lines, "I'm a means, a stage" makes me think she was feeling very much like she was only a vessel in which to bake a baby.  She also felt like she was the big show that everyone was watching, since everyone always comments on the "baby bump" and how you look when pregnant.  Then she says a "cow in a calf." At first I thought that should be reversed (like that she feels like she is a cow that has a calf in her)...  But now it makes total sense to me.  She felt like a calf in a cow- she feels like a small child inside a big mama's body.  She probably felt anxious, unprepared, too young to really be having a baby.  I have felt that way at times, although I am not too young.  Even through pregnancy you can feel like a little kid at heart still, nervous that you wont exactly be ready for motherhood. 

When she says "I have eaten a bag of green apples, I can really relate to that!  I have eaten lots of green apples since becoming pregnant, #1 because I have craved them, #2 because they're healthy, #3 because they relieve heartburn.  But she is also speaking of feeling like she has just eaten a bag of plump, round apples and they are filling up her belly making her feel swollen, ripe, perhaps even leaving a sour taste (like green apples do). 

Lastly, when she says she has boarded a train and there is no getting off… I don't believe that she actually wanted to end her pregnancy or that she was unhappy with being pregnant.  I do believe that just like any pregnant woman, you realize how life altering of a thing pregnancy is.  There is no turning back.  You will be bringing a life into the world.  I experienced this feeling toward the beginning of my pregnancy.  On Facebook, an old friend commented saying, "You're going to be a mom!?  How do you feel about that? Are you ready?"  And my response was… "well, no going back now!"   There won't ever be any going back to a time and a life where I was married with no kids, and not pregnant.  Which is a good thing!

One pretty sweet fact about the poem:  there are nine lines,  and nine syllables in each line. 

Overall, love the poem and love Sylvia.  She sure had a way of expressing herself!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Psychology Class

Years ago in college, in my psych class (I was probably 19 or 20 at the time), my professor gave us an assignment. We had to write down an age that we would like to be and why. I wrote down the age 26, because I would most likely be married and settling down and starting a family by then. The whole point of the assignment was to show how most people would choose to go ahead in life and be older than they are rather than going back in life and being a younger age. But I never forgot that assignment... and now, being 26 years old and married with a baby on the way, it seems that I knew deep down from that earlier age that I would be in this place in life at this time. Sometimes I worry about missing out on things once the baby comes. Heck, I already missed out on the FC at Kili. However, I do NOT want to miss the next one!! I cannot get preggers again! HAHAH! The next one is April 2013 and they are still trying to confirm for sure the location, but I know that no matter what I want to be there if I can. I know I will have a nine month old baby, but I am hoping and praying that it would work out that she can be taken care of while I am gone. I also worry about things like money and where we are in life to be having a kid. Phil is at an entry level job and in school. I am going to be working part time from home. Neither of those jobs amount to making enough to really support a family... we are really going to need to rely on God for help and provision, which is hard for me to do. I worry about date nights and the possibility of losing romance with Phil. I really want to feel like a young, happily married couple still rather than old hags with kids who never go out. I want to be able to say, "Yes, we CAN go to that rock concert," or "we just went out to the most fabulous place last night." I worry about being one of those mom's who only talks about her own kid and doesn't keep up with the media or news. I know I will talk about my kid, post WAY too many photos of her on facebook, and brag about her every accomplishment ("my kid rolled over for the first time today! Woohoo!"). Haha. Right now those things seem so... trivial and silly to me, but I know when it is my kid that I will feel differently. But I really do want to have a LIFE aside from just being a mom... and I am not even a mom yet!!! I think I have just been jaded. I have been told by too many people, "You won't care about doing that when you have kids." (Mostly referring to climbing a mountain for the FC). Well, you know what? I am predicting that by the age of 30 I will have climbed MORE than one mountain, made leaps and BOUNDS towards a better career, had a second and possibly third child, and be in a place in life where I am willing to let God lead us to wherever He wants us to be. I predict that I'll be a mom who LOVES her kids with her entire heart, but also loves life, culture, experiences, travel, adventure, and most of all people.